“I had to grind like that
Just to shine like this
Yea my dreams ain’t quite reality
But worth the risk
When my brains creating fallacies
I channel bliss
Prolly ain’t the people’s choice
But they gone feel this”
What do you think of when you think about “the people’s choice?” I’m thinking popular. I’m thinking widely acceptable. Well liked. Guarantee. The person or people that folks are choosing. A favorite. And when I think of ‘the people’s choice,’ I never think of me. I’ve never been ‘popular’ or ‘well liked.’ Not to say that I was hated or anything lol, but I always fell into that middle group of people that weren’t lame but definitely weren’t popular either lol. It’s pretty weird how all our lives we’ve been separated into categories but that’s a conversation for another time lol. Anywaydoe, in high school, I struggled with the whole ‘being accepted’ concept. Not to the detriment of myself but enough to remember how pressed I felt to “get popular.” To have everyone like me and acknowledge me. Praise God for growth because I now realize that I’m not for everybody and that’s absolutely okay. But as you can probably tell from the lyrics, I live in my head quite a bit, so there’s always an inner struggle.
This song was inspired by a lot of things. A lot of different pieces from different stages of my life. I think the portion of life that most inspired this song was more recent. Within the last 5-6 years. I’ve lived quite a bit of life in the last 5-6 years man. Been associated with a lot of different people. Worked a lot of different jobs. Had a lot of titles and several different friend groups. Achieved a lot of goals I set for myself and yet, felt so empty. Probably because I was overthinking. But as I sit back and write this piece, I think it may have been because I was doing all of this stuff for the wrong reasons. I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be accepted. I wanted folks to know my name. I wanted to be the people’s choice. And it seemed like no one was clapping like I wanted them to. Again, over thinker. This could’ve been all in my head.
As time flew by, one thing remained constant. I was dedicated to the work. To the grind. The hustle. I never wanted anything I didn’t work for. And guess what? The real ones recognize real work ethic and great energy. I’ve learned that my energy is one of my greatest assets. And even if I’m not ‘the people’s choice,’ they gone feel this lol. As we grow, our vision changes, our desires change. We evolve as people and as individuals. Eventually you learn, sometimes, you just have to put your head down and work. Don’t worry about who’s watching or who’s clapping. Don’t worry about being accepted or being popular. Keep your eyes on the prize and press forward. You’ll notice that many of the things you use to strive for in the past were distractions. The real bag comes when you learn yourself and make that shit work for you. Popularity can’t pay the bills if you don’t know how to monetize it anyway.
I say all that to say, it’s really how you play the game. And if you’re out here trying to make everyone like you and pressed about being ‘popular,’ you’re worried about the wrong things my baby lol. Stay focused on the long game.