Have you ever felt like you don’t deserve to sleep because you didn’t do enough work while you were awake? Have you ever felt like you haven’t been working hard enough so you don’t deserve to get your hair done or nails done? If you haven’t noticed, I’m talking about me. I’ve been working these last few years as an entrepreneur and writer. This entrepreneurial life has NOT consistently put money in my pocket yet. It had been about a week since we got back from LA. I was so glad to be home. A part of me knew I was going to move to LA this fall. My heart and spirit were so ready. But after this last trip, my mind has truly been changed. It just didn’t feel like home anymore. I guess I’m only in love with the weather. Detroit is where my heart is. So I’m going to build here. Anywaydoe, we had finally got a chance to go to our favorite restaurant, Mexican Fiesta. It was a late birthday dinner of sorts, for bae. While we were eating and chatting, I had come to the realization that I’ve been half stepping. I haven’t been working half as hard as my brain wants to make me believe. Ive been working comfortably. In my comfort zone. I was tapping in, but I wasn’t maxing out. I actually don’t know what I look like when I’m working at my maximum capacity. And I want to see it y’all! I mean, have you ever thought about how hard you work? I can’t be the only one that has come to this conclusion. I mean, I make what I do look good. From the outside in, I’m a young entrepreneurial boss. But if I’m being absolutely honest with myself, there’s A LOT more I could be doing.
So why am I telling you this? Because I want to know, are we being truly honest with ourselves? Or are we gassing. See, a lot of folks, including myself, are living in an illusion we’ve built. We do a little work and then BOOM, booking info in my bio, email me for consultations, etc., etc. But a lot of the time, the real work ain’t pretty. So you won’t see it on an IG story. You’ll just see the finished product. But in reality, behind the smoke and mirrors, it can get ugly. I want to see my ugly lol. I’ve been playing it safe but I’m ready to risk it all. Some I’m challenging you. Let’s dedicate the next 6 months to the hard work. The dirty work. And even when it’s not pretty, we’re going to stick to it and grind through it. Some of us don’t even know what we’re truly capable of and it’s time to let God work. Let’s let him show out. We’re putting our heads down and putting the work in. God has some great things planned for us this year. I can feel it in my spirit. This life is yours to create, let’s get it.