I'm Back and I'm Better!
I took the holiday off, for obvious reasons lol. But what was just the holiday turned into the month of January. I wanted to write, for the sake of keeping my content flowing, but my heart wasn’t in it. I was uninspired. I didn’t like where my blog was going. The content I was creating didn’t really have my heart in it. I was sort of just writing to garner a larger audience. Because that’s what you do, right? At least that’s what they told me. Write about the things people are interested in. If your content isn’t getting viewed, it’s probably because it’s boring and uninteresting. So what was once a diary of thoughts and opinions, an open space and platform for me to do me, turned into a lifestyle blog. Tips and tricks and things and stuff. All created to satisfy “the people.” Not really true to my idea of what I wanted my blog to be but I did it anyway. Because I wanted to be seen. I wanted to make a mark in this blogger world. I mean it’s been about 7 years since I started blogging, in general. And I've been truly consistent for the last 3. It’s time for my come up, right? But then I realized, I don’t want it this way. I don’t want to have to change who I am to fit a mold that wasn’t created for me. So I started researching and I found out that there’s a name for what Everyday Rae’ use to be. Everyday Rae’ was once a personal blog. My posts are written with my own voice and filled with my thoughts and opinions. You can feel me, right there, as if I’m speaking directly to you. And I enjoyed that. So I’m going back to that. You know, they say if you just put your head down and work, the rewards and accolades will come to you. I’ve dedicated this 26th year of life to working harder than ever before. I have so many plans and ideas and I’m not going to sit around and overthink them this year. I’m going to put action behind them. I’ve come too far to stop now. I owe it to myself to dominate this year.
A lot really changed at the top of this year. It’s like my whole being and mindset shifted. This is the first year in 3 years that I didn’t end my birthday celebration in tears because the people I call “friends” didn’t show up and show out like I think they should. This year I celebrated a new year of life and a new beginning. A real one. A true one. I prayed and pushed all the feelings of being left out and undervalued away. I meditated and fasted and heard Gods voice loud and clear. You know what he told me? By the time they truly realize your value, it’ll be too late. And man, did that feel good. You see, I determine the value of my work and my life and I’d say the stakes are pretty high. Other people’s opinions of me and feelings towards me are none of my business. I can choose to dwell on the past and carry that burden with me from year to year, or I can let that thang go and Go with God. You probably already know what I’ve chosen lol. A lot of things are going to change. A lot of attachments are going to be released. A lot of things that use to concern me are no longer on my radar. As the vision continuously get larger, the circles get smaller and more intricate. This year, I’m working my ass off. And if you’re not working just as hard, we probably shouldn't be around each other. I dare you to dedicate this year to the hard work. Whether that be self-work, dream work, working on your business plan or simply working out. Do the work. There is no shortcut to success. And it’s not easy, at all. Trust me. But if you put your heart in it and push forward, you’ll see results. I got your back through it all. I’ll leave you with some words from one of my favorite people, Jas Waters: “You can be great or you can be safe. There’s nothing wrong with either. But you can’t be both at the same time.” Y’all already know what side I’m on! Peace, Love and Light